[It isn't an empty platitude. As an individual, Noel is so meaningful. No one else has ever challenged Kaworu to simply take better care of himself. If it weren't for today's semi-successful haul, he'd still be slurping on crusty soup. Hopefully, with enough practice, relying on restaurants to feed him will become a thing of the past. All he needs is a push in the right direction.]
I love you.
[His fingers curl into Noel's shirt, as if to anchor him. He feels set adrift. Losing Shinji as a boyfriend most likely means losing Shinji as a best friend. If they're going to reconcile, it's going to take a great deal of effort--from both sides, not just Kaworu's. He doesn't know if that is possible.
Noel is helping to lull him by rubbing his back, at least. It feels nice. It's what a concerned parent will do for their children, right? After a bad day? After a bad dream? He's seen it happen on TV and in movies. Friends and lovers can do it for each other, too. He's glad that Noel is his friend as well as his boyfriend. Right now, more than anything else, he could use a good friend.]
Next time, I want to go to the organic market. Please take me there.
[The ducks are quacking and splashing somewhere in the background. If he feels like moving again, he'll see about feeding them; that was part of the happy outing he imagined originally. For now, there's something he wants to ask before it's too late.]
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[It isn't an empty platitude. As an individual, Noel is so meaningful. No one else has ever challenged Kaworu to simply take better care of himself. If it weren't for today's semi-successful haul, he'd still be slurping on crusty soup. Hopefully, with enough practice, relying on restaurants to feed him will become a thing of the past. All he needs is a push in the right direction.]
I love you.
[His fingers curl into Noel's shirt, as if to anchor him. He feels set adrift. Losing Shinji as a boyfriend most likely means losing Shinji as a best friend. If they're going to reconcile, it's going to take a great deal of effort--from both sides, not just Kaworu's. He doesn't know if that is possible.
Noel is helping to lull him by rubbing his back, at least. It feels nice. It's what a concerned parent will do for their children, right? After a bad day? After a bad dream? He's seen it happen on TV and in movies. Friends and lovers can do it for each other, too. He's glad that Noel is his friend as well as his boyfriend. Right now, more than anything else, he could use a good friend.]
Next time, I want to go to the organic market. Please take me there.
[The ducks are quacking and splashing somewhere in the background. If he feels like moving again, he'll see about feeding them; that was part of the happy outing he imagined originally. For now, there's something he wants to ask before it's too late.]
Hey, are you going to hurt Shinji?